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I’m Back And Ready To Explore

I’ll start by thanking everyone who’s checked in with me during my month-long absence from blogging — that really brought home to me that I’ve made some genuine connections in the blogging world, and it’s not all just about “one hand washing the other” and “you scratching my back and me scratching yours” and collectively achieving A-List Social Media Superstardom.  :)

The explanation for my absence is that, for a long time, I just didn’t feel inspired to write.  The way I was writing simply wasn’t fully bringing out who I am.  There are aspects of me — particularly my wild, spontaneous part — that my structured, “prescriptive” style of writing wasn’t making use of, and that was frustrating to me.

I thought and agonized about this for a while, and finally came to a resolution.   I just needed to try a different kind of creative expression for a while, and find something that did bring out those parts that wanted to be seen.  I didn’t need to stop writing altogether, but I needed to take a little detour.

So, I’ve been exploring for a bit, and trying some new stuff.  I’ve been working on a computer game with a friend that focuses on what Stone Age spirituality might have been like.  :)  I’ve also done some videos I’d like to share with you.

At Least I Feel Alive

I’ve received all kinds of reactions to these videos so far — from “I had to lie down after watching these” to “I don’t get this at all.”  Wherever your reactions are on that spectrum, they’re welcome here (if you like them, I’d appreciate a “Like” on YouTube).

One thing I’ve noticed is that people’s reactions to my creative work, no matter what they are, always help me feel alive.  It’s not always a blissful kind of aliveness — it may be a “fight or flight” kind of aliveness, for example, when someone talks to me in a way that seems critical and attacking.

But one thing is certain — when I’m getting feedback on projects I’m invested in, and feeling the emotions that come with it, it’s impossible for me to go through my day in a numb and robotic way, as I can from time to time.  I’m sure to feel a lot of rich sensation — and learning to embrace intense sensation, instead of turning away from it, is what my own growth and exploration, and the work I share with others, are about.

Without further ado, here are the videos.  I’ll be doing a lot more writing shortly, and I’m looking forward to catching up with those of you I haven’t connected with in a while.

9 thoughts on
I’m Back And Ready To Explore

  1. Evan

    Hi Chris,

    good to have you back.

    I guess vegans would think that non-vegans act like killers every day. One of my big dreams lead to me owning that there is a part of me that is a shark. (The positive being the ability to zero in on the right place or thing.)

    I think if I found out I was a vampire my first response would be to sit with it by myself. This is what I usually do. I’m not sure if/who I would tell.

    What does it take to produce the finest care in the world? Being Italian?

  2. Angela Artemis/Poweredbyintuition

    Hi Chris,
    You were very busy while on your break!
    I don’t like the Killer video. I’m not partial to that word being repeated with such emphasis.
    I’m also not crazy about finding out I’m a vampire. I don’t resonate to that vibe either.
    I did enjoy your other videos. I’d like to know what the greats ate and smelled.
    Finding what makes a car great was engaging also.
    Keep exploring. It is fun and stretches the imagination.

  3. Chris - Post author

    Hi Evan — I was particularly looking forward to hearing how you would react to these videos, since you’ve known me for a long time and they are such non sequiturs compared to everything else I’ve done. I liked what you said about owning your shark part — that feels refreshing to me, and it’s the kind of edge I think the personal development blogosphere could stand to explore more often.

  4. Chris - Post author

    Hi Angela — thank you for your reactions. The different ways people respond to these videos is fascinating to me. I didn’t anticipate that people would see the “vampire” video and start actually thinking about what it would be like to find out they were a vampire — it sounds like you have a vivid imagination. Getting comments has been even more of an exploration than making the videos!

  5. Sara


    It is good to have you back. I like what you’re exploring with the videos. Each one seems to a piece of something. I wonder if your brain is putting its own puzzle together, piece by piece. I also like the questions posed by these videos and I don’t necessarily mean, the obvious. It’s like a thinking game, making me think “outside the box.”

    These would be great video prompts for writers. I liked the What Pablo Picasso Knew because it’s exploring the senses of these people. Each one would fun to write about.

    The best part of this post is knowing that you’re feeling alive again, creatively. I just came from another site where the blogger was struggling. I’ve had my own moments this summer.

    I think this happens when we need to stop and refresh things in our life. I used this example at her site: Every field needs to left fallow every once in awhile. This is time when the soil rests and rejuvenates itself. Then when it’s planted again, it can sustain the plants.

    As humans, we don’t allow this “fallow” time easily; we go down fighting, but we do eventually go down. Then after we’ve rested, we’re ready to start up again, like you’re doing:~) I am so pleased you’re exploring the video; they are very creative!

  6. Jimmy/Life Architect

    Hi Chris,

    You are not the only one needing a break from blogging. Sometimes, we lose our inspiration and sense of passion as the chores of daily living catch up with us. I have experienced that as well. It is ok. We just need to recharge and reconnect in other ways. Just like you have and are back on the scene again. I am new to your blog, but rest assured that I will be here often.

  7. Chris - Post author

    Hi Sara — it’s amusing to me how seriously people have been taking these videos — for me, they were just my exploration of my sillier side. But if they do inspire people’s writing or creativity I’m totally okay with that too. :) I like what you say about being fallow for a little while — I’m grateful for the fact that I’ve been able to lie fallow for a bit without needing to have some injury to put me there.

  8. Chris - Post author

    Hi Jimmy — good to meet you. I’m glad you shared your experience of feeling fatigued around blogging — stories like that definitely remind me of the humanity I share with everyone, and that I’m not “terminally unique.” :)

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